More Questionnaires....

I have discovered memes.


This is going to be painful for you. Here's some background info: I am super organised. I am super anal about filing, and other organisational type activities. I'm also a control freak (example - I must, must, must have in my hands all the relevant documents when we go on holiday. The Boyfriend also likes to hold them. We have had full on arguments over holding the documents before - while on holiday). So it follows logically that I like to fill in forms. And I discovered memes. For more info on memes, click here.


So for today, I am once again going to answer a whole bunch of questions about myself. This also ties in with the I'm-so-fricken-busy-and-stressed-I-cry-at-random-times-and-can't-string-a-decent-post-together-to-save-my-life vibe I have going on right now. So here is my latest meme, stolen from a blog called Sunday Stealing.

TRUE OR FALSE

Q: Kissed someone on your friends list? Friends list? I'm not sure what this means. Probably I have ;) 

Q: Been arrested? No, I'm far too much of a good girl 

Q: Held a snake? Yes a few times. But they still freak me out!

Q: Been suspended from school? Nope, see above 

Q: Sang karaoke? Yes! This was on my list of things to do before I'm 30 and I did it! It was awful. I feel very sorry for the people listening - Bohemian Rhapsody will never be the same. 

Q: Done something you told yourself you wouldn't do? Plenty of times. I have no willpower. Don't eat those chips, don't watch TV all day, don't deliberately provoke The Boyfriend, don't drink so much - did them all. 

Q: Laughed until you started crying? Yep - I went to the zoo with my mum and sister the other day and we were narrating the animals antics. It was hilarious, but I think you had to be there. And also, last night I watched Love, Actually and the line 'He's Colin Frissle and he's GOT A BIG KNOB' brought me to tears. 

Q: Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Nope, I've never seen snow - one of the blessings (curses?) of living in Perth 

Q: Kissed in the rain? Not that I remember, but it could have happened 

Q: Sang in the shower? Yes, but I try not to if other people are home - I am a terrible singer

Q: Sat on a roof top? You know, I actually haven't. I should though. Maybe at my new house...

Q: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? No, but my dad threw me into a river fully clothed once. It was in New Zealand and it was fricken freezing

Q: Broken a bone? Nope. I thought I did a couple of times, but it turned out to just be major bruising and soft tissue damage

Q: Shaved your head? No, I'm too vain about my hair. Although, its something I've been thinking about lately. 

Q: Played a prank on someone? Probably at some point, but I can't remember specifics

Q: Shot a gun? Yep. I was awful - no aim whatsoever

Q: Donated Blood? I was supposed to when I was 17, but the Red Cross messed me around a bit, and I've never gone back. I will though - just have to get off my arse and do it. 

LAST PERSON...

1. You hung out with? My flatmate, Peter. He's a sweetie who always watches movies with me 

2. You texted? Smoochy Fox. She brought me dinner from work - it was delicious!

3. You were in a car with? True Blue Kangaroo - we went out for breakfast yesterday. It was good to catch up

4. Went to the movies with? The Boyfriend, to see Pirates of the Carribean 4. And before that, Smoochy Fox to see Water for Elephants

5. Person you went to shop with? Smoochy Fox - are you seeing a pattern here?

6. You talked on the phone? The Boyfriend. He's away right now, and he called me to say goodnight <3 

7. Made you laugh? Peter my flatmate

8. You hugged? Peter my flatmate :) 

IN THE LAST 48 HOURS HAVE YOU...

1. Sang? Yep, I was singing 'Take me aawwwaaay, a million miles awway from here'. 

2. Listened to music? I'm doing it right now! I've got Howie Day's 'Collide', John Mayer's 'Your Body is a Wonderland', Jewel's 'You Were Meant for Me' and 98 Degrees 'I Do (Cherish You)' going. Yeah I'm in romantic mood.

3. Danced Crazy? Mudrock! Its the big end of semester party at Murdoch, and I danced like crazy. 

4. Cried? This morning. I woke up feeling awful, almost hungover, but without the fun drinking the night before. Peter thinks its fun to provoke me when I'm feeling delicate like this. 

FIRSTS .....

1.Who was your first prom (or homecoming) date? A boy named Tom. I thought I was so in love - don't we all at 13? 

2. Who was your first roommate? At boarding school, a girl named Sophie. And Flying Monkey when I moved to uni. 

3. What alcoholic beverage did you drink when you got drunk the first time? Oh god, probably something like Vodka Cruisers. Good ol' lolly water 

4. What was your first job? I was a checkout chick at the local service station. Plus I did food prep and sometimes cooked. 

5. What was your first car? My Hyundai Getz. I still have it, and I love it. Its one of the best cars around  

6. When did you go to your first funeral and viewing? I went to my friends mums funeral in 2008. It was awful, she was far too young to be taken. 

7. Who was your first grade teacher?  Miss Temme 

8. Where did you go on your first ride on an airplane? 18 months old :) My dad is from New Zealand so we went every 2 years or so - I'm an experienced little traveller

9. When you snuck out of your house for the first time? When I was about 14. The fly screen on my window was broken so my friends and I used to sneak out. But we didn't actually do anything, bar talk to some guys who lived near us. It was the least rebellious sneaking out ever.  

10. Who was your first best friend? Natika - we don't talk anymore though 

11. Who was your first Best Friend in high school? True Blue Kangaroo. We've been best friends since we were 13

12. Where was your first sleepover? Probably Natika's house. Or possibly Julia. Someone. When I was around 6 or 7 

13. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day? The Boyfriend, Smoochy Fox, mum. In that order

14. Who's wedding were you in the first time you were a Bridesmaid or groomsman? I was a flower girl in my uncles wedding when I was about 8. And I'm a bridesmaid in The Boyfriends sisters wedding in September. And my friend asked me to MC her wedding in October :) 

15. What is the first thing you did when you got up this morning? Washed my face, then sat on the couch and cried 

16. First time you tied your shoe laces? Maybe I was 4 or 5? Who remembers that stuff?

17. Are you Facebook friends with your first crush? Uh no. That was probably Tom. And yeah, I haven't seen him in years

18. Who was the first person you met from the blogosphere? Jono from Inside a Students Mind. That's what got me blogging actually

19. What was the first music album that you bought? Something like So Fresh probably.

20. Who was your first celebrity crush? I can't remember. I wasn't really a celebrity crush kind of girl. 


So there is me.... again. I will try and give you a proper post soon, I just can't right now. Too many things in my life and in my head. 


Stay happy :) 

ABC of ASHLEIGH

Hi guys

Sorry, I'm neglecting you awfully at the moment. More separation is to follow as well. If you cast your eyes to the right of the screen you will see a lovely pink countdown box. What? Its into the single digits now? No way! Yes, dear followers. That is the number of days until I go on the ultimate Europe adventure. So I won't be posting much - but I promise copious pictures and stories when I return :) 

So, as a consolation prize, and because I don't have a lot of time, I ahem 'borrowed' this idea from Steph at The Odd Duck, who borrowed it from Deer Donna, who borrowed it from Elycia, who probably got it from somewhere else. Yes, if you also follow The Odd Duck, I did just blatantly rip off that paragraph from Steph. What can I say? Imitation is the sincerest form of flattery. 

So here it is. The ABC's of Ashleigh. 

A. Age: 20 and soon-to-be 21! 

B. Bed Size: Currently a king single, which is awkward when The Boyfriend sleeps over - snuggly, but awkward and down-right awful in summer. BUT - given that I'm moving in a week, I will be getting my lovely double bed back! I bought it with my very first paycheck and I LOVE it! 

C. Chore that you hate: Oh god, where do I begin. Dishes, washing, cleaning in general. When I'm rich and famous, I plan on hiring a cleaner 1 day a week (preferably Friday so I come home to a clean house) and having a dishwasher :) 

D. Dogs: Can't stand them. I don't think I have a more hated animal **shudder**

E. Essential start to your day: Coffee. I cannot live with my coffee.

F. Favorite color: Pink! Actually I'll go with almost any bright colour. I love expressing myself with colours, as shown in the pic above

G. Gold or Silver: silver

H. Height: 5'4" or 163cm - I'm only little :) 

I. Instruments you play: I played keyboards in the school band in primary school. But I haven't picked up an instrument for years, and don't really have the inclination to. I'm a hideously uncreative person. 

J. Job Title: Administration Assistant: Human Resources and Special Projects. Although I prefer to think of myself as Awesome Go To Person who Rules the Office. 

K. Kids: Not a fan. Don't have any myself, and I struggle with them anyway. Maybe this is the stage of life I'm at, but I can't imagine having kids. My current favourite blog is STFU, Parents. 

L. Live: Life To The Fullest and In Bright Colours? I reside in Perth, Australia. I can't imagine wanting to setting anywhere else either. Why would I leave The Lucky Country? 

M. Mother's Name: Amanda

N. Nicknames: Ash, Ashy, Smashleigh, Lobster - the last one is what The Boyfriend calls me, and the second last is my drunken alter-ego :) 

O. Overnight hospital stays: I've been in the emergency room twice overnight, both times for this weird chest pain I used to get. They never figured out what was wrong with me, and they let me go, and I'm pretty sure I'm not going to die. I'm tougher than that. 

P. Pet Peeve: Oh so many. Probably people not being considerate and polite. Like, if you want to cancel a plan, just tell me. Or if you fuck up, a simple apology is all thats needed. I'm a reasonable person, and I generally don't hold grudges, unless someone doesn't behave appropriately and apologise. 

Q. Quote from a movie: "If you're a bird, I'm a bird'" The Notebook

R. Right or left handed: Right

S. Siblings: 1 younger sister. 

T. Time you wake up: Usually around 9/9.30. Unless I have to work. But I find it hard to get up in the morning :)

U. Underwear: Comfortable. Usually Bonds. Black, white or grey. Sometimes I splash out though - I just bought a pair of Superman underwear oh yeah :D

V. Vegetable you hate: I like pretty much all vegetables. I HATE mushrooms. **gag**

W. What makes you run late: Other people! I'm never late, unless someone else has done something or delayed me. I value being on time. It's almost sacrosanct 

X. X-rays you've had: Quite a few actually. There was my chest when I was in hospital, and my teeth at the dentist, and my foot when I nearly broke it on the bus coming back from rowing at school, and my hand when I jarred my finger so badly at basketball it swelled for like a week. 

Y. Yummy food that you make: Everything I make is good. Cooking is actually one of my hidden talents. I have to say, my risotto kicks arse though - pumpkin, spinach, chicken and feta - om nom nom nom nom. 

Z. Zoo Animal: Um, elephants, otters, monkeys, giraffes, zebras, lizards, penguins. I LOVE the zoo! I want to be married at the zoo. I went to the zoo yesterday actually. One of my favourite places ever :) 

So there you have it. The ABC of Ashleigh. Hey that rhymes. 

Okies, I will be back later this week - I will post before I go on holiday I promise :) 

Until then, 

stay happy :) 

Even the Best Fall Down Sometimes

Ever feel like you're drowning, yet you don't quite know why? 


I'm sorry I haven't been posting lately. Really truly, I am sorry. I've fallen behind on all my blog reading too, so I hope all of your lives are good right now. 


Its 2.5 weeks until the end of semester. 2.5 weeks until I finish my exams. 2.5 weeks till I move out of the Village. 2.5 weeks until I go to Europe. 2.5 weeks to cram a semester worth of knowledge for 3 units into my head. Its gonna be a big 2.5 weeks. 


I'm also tutoring at the moment. And trying to go to the gym (not happening so much lately, but I need to keep going. I feel ridiculously fat right now). And feeling like I'm failing at everything I do.


Logically, this isn't true. I mean, to an outsider my life is great at the moment. Exam wise - I've done so well in one of my units I have passed it without even sitting the exam. The other one, I only 7.5 marks to pass it. The last one, well, I sort of crashed and burned in that one. 18 marks needed. Yeah yeah, it doesn't sound like much, but I did really crap and only got 32/50 for the semesters marks. The final exam is worth 50%. 


Apparently, I have lost weight. I'm not so sure about this, but I'm beginning to think I have a really fucked body image. Or everyone is lying to me about how I look. I float between the two. I hurt my wrist at the gym before though, because just like I am prone to do, I pushed it too hard, and when it started to hurt, I just kept going. It was very strange, because even though I knew I should stop, I somehow couldn't make myself do it. It wasn't until I literally could not lift the weight anymore that I stopped. And even then, I felt like I hadn't had a good work out. 


Anyway, so on the surface, lifes good. Remember a few posts ago, I mentioned YASI's? The subset of depressives who are Young, Attractive, Successful and Intelligent? I feel like it applies to me a lot. Not because I'm depressed per se, but more that I feel like I am only just keeping everything afloat. Like any moment, that water that I'm so desperately treading is going to swallow me whole. But everything on the outside is so great, that I can't really express how I feel inside. And I'm not sure anyone would believe me anyway. Then I feel guilty, because my life is awesome. And get angry at myself for being so spoiled and self indulgent. It could be far, far worse.

I need a fricken holiday. I can barely bring myself to get out of bed in the morning. I studied in the library today, went home and curled into the fetal position and hid under my doona. My poor flatmate keeps trying to make me laugh and I feel like I'm on the verge of tears the whole time. 


Wow, this is a poor me post. We haven't had one of these for a while, have we? 


I guess it was just time.


I'll try and post again soon.