Yes, I know, I know.
I haven't blogged in a while. In my defence, I have been having a bit of a rough time lately. One of my friends (I won't say which) was hospitalized for a personal reason and it brought back a lot of memories and crap for me, which had nothing to do with her, just my own issues that probably should have been properly dealt with at the time, but I tend to be a bit of a deny-there's-a-problem-in-my-perfect-life kind of person.
Side bar: I was doing some reading last week and it was talking about a particular subset of people with depression, knowns as YASI's - young, attractive, successful, intelligent. In short, those people who you think have no reason to be unhappy with their life. And often it's harder for them to deal with it (depression) because they can see that their life is pretty awesome, and it causes a hell of a lot of cognitive dissonance when they aren't perfectly happy. I totally get these people. I think about how good my life is- wonderful boyfriend, good job, great friends, studying my passion, great supportive family - and I wonder 'why ami so often dissatisfied?'.
Ok, enough of the psychology lesson.
Right, tomorrow at 1pm I will have my very first operation ever. I have to get two wisdom teeth out (yes yes, I realize I am a freak because I only have two, the oral surgeon very nicely pointed that out to me). I am absolutely terrified. Not because it's dangerous or anything. The moment I'm really worried about is after they've given me the general anesthetic injection, right before I fall asleep. Just that moment of not being there but not being here. The twilight zone, if you will. For someone who is not a good sleeper as it is, it's a nervous moment.
Anyway, wish me luck - obviously I will be out of the blogging loop for a bit, but hopefully not too long!